This post is about half-measures and redirections. I started my #20before20 with a list of 20 goals and resolutions. I’ve completed several — see my state parks and book reviews. Others… well, they haven’t been completed in the original sense.
I started a sweater over Christmas break. I fell in love with its intarsia. I finished the body and started on sleeves. You can see my Instagram for pictures; I accidentally deleted most photos from the past year from my phone and computer.
I hated it. So I turned it into a scarf. It’s still wonky. I might join Fringe Association’s Fisherman Knitalong.
Another goal was to go camping at a state park. My family went camping fairly often when I was young (we had a ratchet camper, and we were in the Serven Scouts. We had patches on our shirts, team flags, and a Serven Scout pledge), but I haven’t been in seven or eight years, and I’ve never gone by myself. In my one free weekend before #20before20 ends, no one would go camping with me, and I wasn’t confident that I could camp by myself and be safe from perverts and snakes. So I camped in the living room.
We made s’mores.
I can’t even pretend that it was real camping.
Another half-measure is #1, have a draft of my novel ready to pursue publication. I spent about 8 months working on a recent novel, under the working title of Blood. I still really love it, but I haven’t worked on it for a month. It was walking the line of melodrama in the first place, and now it has all of my emotions tied into it — I’m not sure. I’ve still been writing, though — I began a short story about a tornado, and an ex-con. I did sent a short story that I finished in the spring to several publications, but I haven’t heard anything back.
One goal was to learn InDesign. I’ve messed around some on my computer, and I tried to land a few design nights at our student newspaper, but I can’t say that I’ve learned a lot.
The major goal of this project was trying — trying to learn new things, meet new people, and get out of my comfort zone. I did not intend to become an expert in any particular area. I did not intend to become famous, or acclaimed. I just wanted to try new things. While I probably should have invested a little more effort in some areas, I don’t regret my time or the half-assed attempts. Chilling with my roommates in that tent was one of the best nights I’ve had so far. This project may not be perfect, or fully complete, but it’s as close as it gets.